Trials and Tribulations of a Jungle Gym Girl

More of 2.0's road accident of a brain!

You little wrecking ball; go on, the world deserves to fall. - 2005-05-11
Internet boyfriend ahoy! - 2004-12-18
A brief apologetic interlude. - 2004-09-22
Huh. - 2004-08-16
my super secret tomorrows. - 2004-07-31

don't bother
sign the book

[stop your complaining. if i changed the garish colors, it just wouldn't be the same.]

2005-05-11 - 11:01 p.m. You little wrecking ball; go on, the world deserves to fall.

I can't let go of how I denied you closeness yet it hurt when you left anyway. I can't let go of how my feelings are gone but I think you should love me forever. Once I thought I could kill everything and leave. Once I thought I could keep myself together forever. When you broke my love it went like torn rice paper and not like a car crash. When I purged myself of you it was like swirling ash and not like a fever. It was not like I thought it should be. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what love was. I couldn't have given what I didn't have.

Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born.
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.
Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.

And this is what happened before that - And this is what happened after